alrite well...technically im still dead cuz i don't really upload art tat much. my bad.

just here to say how ya'll do'n and such? yea i don't upload anything in my other account either lol


too much romance problems in my life. to much social complications. to much family matters that's fucking up. it's annoying and life in general is getting annoying now haha.

im making up my patches with my 1st ex and idk how that's going
I'm proud to say im fuck'n good friends with my 2nd ex; jsut sad how it ended like it did but it was gona happen, i just didn't think it'd happen to quick...well at least he's my good friend now.
apparently there's this other person who likes me now....wtf -_-; i'm getting tired of love life...but ... there's a part of me that just wants to have someone and just try it and if it doesnt' work out then i let it go..that's fucked up but .... yea... idk haha i need to get my self control back.

atm though im thinking this other chick is pretty damn hot. srsly she's freak'n cute...lol
and im assuming i liked one of my friends though she got annoying so i started to disconnect recently but when i found out she got asked out by someone i got slightly jealous? not just cuz we might not be talk'n but just cuz...guess that's what got me think'n. *sigh* hormones everywhere guys. it's insane haha.

im feel'n horrible though man, i've hurt so many pple, i've hurt my ex's hearts when i was with them ad im afraid of hurting another /:

but idk how to really reject pple...hmm...i end up saying the wrong this like " next time?" and they actaully wait ... hm...

crazy haha but i do feel flattered that they actaully waited up ...and i do end up giving them a shot if they seem chill, we're on good terms, and they still like me...haha

man...am i player when i don't mean to be? ._. feels like i am sometimes... i lead pple on, tease them , then i say " srry i didn't see it like that " /: and i don't really notice it or i just htink it's just me being "flirty" not full on or nothing. i gotta stop




no more mind fuck'n i need to leave their virgin minds alone lol


aite imma bounce c ya